Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Fighting The Treasures of Life...

What do you do when things are broken?
Throw it? Leave it? Or deal with it?
Until last week, I never realised how much I would do to fix something that's broken. Until it became perfect once again. No matter how many times those letterings from the chain kept falling apart, I deliberately chose to sit for half an hour fiddling and fixing it up. It wasn't the first.

Over and over again I never allowed my belongings to extend its way to be less used. I would fix it. Use pliers til its perfected. Even when my school uniforms were slightly torn, I would sew it back until that gap has closed.

Have you wanted anything so badly, that you'll do almost anything to make sure its perfect?
As far as I know, I'm that person. I keep asking myself why Fi? Why? ...
Its not just merely about fixing things that are broken. It's about how much I want to straighten things out so that in one way or another, fight for its existence.

When something or someone means to you, you'll never let it slip through your fingers. Instead, you'll fight for its right to stay as long as it possibly can. I wonder sometimes if fate decides who or what you become. I mean what if, its supposedly not in the plan of your life. But you chose that path yourself. Its not meant to be yours, and yet, you would snatch it as hard as you can; even if its out of your grasps. If fate determined that you shan't get it and signs around you indicate so, would it not be right to still oppose reality?

If you knew someone was leaving today for good, and you had the chance to stop it, would you? Fate can be fate. But what if, fate is wrong? What if, we can really reach out for what we yearn for? Is it not right to fight for it?

Monday was an incident. Today is not a coincidence.

Class 2010 will be our last year in high school. What is high school without a proper ending? Memories are the only elements we can keep after this. Of friendships, experiences and so many more undescribable things that has mould us into individual selves. Today I made a decision, that is to try. I wonder how many people are on my side to get our night. A night that all of us will never forget. A night to cherish in our memories forever. I'm going to fight for what I believe in. I know that my fellow friends want this too.My hopes are that things will work out and that everyone will steer towards our goal of being united before we leave each other. I love you people who are so awesome.

I'm not stopping until I have no road or options left. After all, these are the treasures we are fighting for...

Fidelia. xoxo

Battle between books,and life...

I'm sorry for the delay in my blog update. As you can see, this is the battle between books and life. Thanks to Brian, here's the update. Why does this sound awkward? Hmphh. Never mind.

Lately, I've been pondering over what I'd wanna do rather than focusing on how. A musician perhaps. Or a writer? I have no idea. And I have particularly no idea on how to gear myself into the correct mode.
Class has quietened down. Less chatters, less noise or gossips. More on the sound of flipping pages and pin drop silence. Where has all the noise and cheeriness gone?

Everyone is constantly focused and not easily distracted. I stare at my pages with thoughts of what to do? Why aren't I studying? Why am I just staring??

I still can't determine where I go, but setting goals aren't a crime right? So that's what I decided to do. Since I'm not born an artist, I've decided for now to push myself towards my goals in order to maintain in the science stream. It's difficult. But at least for now, I have something to start my engine running. No more time to start the wheels. We've got to race towards the finish line. Or you'll be left behind.

I slacked back last week due to tension. It's like a partial breakdown. The only thing I keep telling myself is that there's no more time for break downs. Get up and run again. Time to time we remind ourselves when our mind battles the thought of lazing and studying. Hey, I never said I was perfect...

Today, we had an education fair. Looking into the requirements for entry into Uni really made me realise how great the competition is. If I don't get up and fight now, I'll be swept away just like falling into a whirlpool and never coming out of it. This is the Future! And there's no turning back now that I've come this far. I need those As.
Motivation. Speed. Concentration. Understanding. Most importantly..... FOCUS.
The elements to succeed.
I still wonder what's going to happen. People say that you determine the road of your life. I'm doing something about it by starting right now. If your with me, meet me at the finish line.
Cry now in pain and cry for joy later. People say that we are the cause of shaping our roads and future. Do you?