So close to the verge of giving up in finding hope. And out nothing, I finally found something.- Fidelia
If I had lost my motivation to think positively, I only remember them being due to bitter memories. Trust being afraid to be passed on of fear to betrayal. My strength became my weaknesses until I finally found one who knew how to cherish them.
It's funny how I actually thought I'd be inspired by one so close in age gap with me. I never thought I'd say this, but it's weird how I'm like a rabbit tailing footsteps towards success that you have already set on the path.
Then I met you. Then you made me realize that life is more to than just things or problems surrounding ourselves.
I used to depend so much on others, I hadn't had the strength to withstand circumstances on my own. You reminded me that life isn't about depending on someone else to shape it, but me myself to drive towards the goal that I've set. Through the words you say, you made me grow up so much.
"If you change yourself for others, then what does that make you? It doesn't make you your own unique self anymore." - Kenny
It's been some time since I've met one who celebrates everyone's
differences. One who embraces and welcomes the opinions of others.
For
that, I didn't realize how much I tried accommodating other people's
needs so much so that I became less of myself. I kept having thoughts
that I wasn't good enough or that I couldn't bring myself to the state
of perfection.
However, you threw questions at me asking, "Why do keep wanting to be
someone else? You're special because you are you. You are Fidelia
because of the mistakes you make. Because of those imperfections and
trademarks, that's what made you unique and special in your own way."
After giving much thought, I realized that we can only do so much
by being ourselves and celebrating the differences of others. For that, I learned to accept myself for me. So many
words you uttered, stayed in my mind, making me take them on til another day.
When you brought me a little into your world, you also made me realize that there were many things going out there in the world. You taught me to be sensitive to the needs of others. We share the same vision in making a change for the better in the lives of others. And for that, you gave me a greater push in pursuing the dreams I once had in impacting others.
Knowing you also brought me face to face with challenges I had to deal with. I was afraid but you kept driving me right into my fears, yet, standing hand in hand with me in facing those obstacles. For that, I am grateful because things are a lot better.
You always tell me that life isn't certain and things don't always go according to how we want it to be. And for that, I've learned to be strong. I've learned to accept things as they are; living a simpler choice of life. I've also begun to cherish every single moment I have in life, making the best out of everything.
It's funny how we debated a bit on religion, yet, when I kept telling
myself I was going to fail; you actually reminded me of the strength in
God. I remembered the way you slightly doubted each time I mentioned
the word "Miracles", and that motivated me even more to continue
believing in the faith I had in God. In turn, I kept holding on to my
faith, hoping better things to happen each and everyday.
Not many people will really understand that little inspiration planted in me, that made me grow up so much more in the person I am today. Life is only so much, but it's up to us to make the most out of it.
Dedicated to Kenny Tan.
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Flowing With The River
"Rivers flow towards the sea. If we struggle against the current, we drown. The best thing to do is to follow the stream of where the river flows to."
Life is journey that all of us travel through. I've known as much that there are ups and downs in it.
Lately, I realized that life too resembles a river in life. As a human, we often struggle against the tides and currents; bearing so much fear to survive. We don't realize that the more we struggle, we get swallowed to the point we almost drown. We tend to be over-conscious of our tomorrows that we neglect the beauty embraced in our hands.
I understand now when they say, follow where the tides bring you. From there, we learn to float, to depend on nature where the river streams. We can plan so much, but how do we know where our river leads to? The only thing we can do is to follow and wait.
Through our own strength, we seek and find, but with a strive within. When we learn to rest, that's when we emerge back up to the waters. I've begun to understand from the nature that God has created for us.
Life was not meant to be a struggle. It's meant to be embraced each day. We do the best we can, leaving the rest to God. I look up into the skies during clear nights, counting the starts; all too many, uncountable. I sit by the beach, listening to the tides. The waves bashing against the rocks. Such beautiful nature. I see animals out in the wild, they survive each day, depending on someone more extraordinary than themselves. So I think to myself, if God can take care of these little things, how can He not take care of my future?
Through these journey, I'm anticipating something good for tomorrow. I may fall today, but with the greater One in me, I'll be able to get up again. So what if I fail today, there is a special course set for me. There are people all around us, family, friends who will be there standing beside us while we get up back to our feet. All is left to be done is allowing the river flow towards the set destination.
Life is journey that all of us travel through. I've known as much that there are ups and downs in it.
Lately, I realized that life too resembles a river in life. As a human, we often struggle against the tides and currents; bearing so much fear to survive. We don't realize that the more we struggle, we get swallowed to the point we almost drown. We tend to be over-conscious of our tomorrows that we neglect the beauty embraced in our hands.
I understand now when they say, follow where the tides bring you. From there, we learn to float, to depend on nature where the river streams. We can plan so much, but how do we know where our river leads to? The only thing we can do is to follow and wait.
Through our own strength, we seek and find, but with a strive within. When we learn to rest, that's when we emerge back up to the waters. I've begun to understand from the nature that God has created for us.
Life was not meant to be a struggle. It's meant to be embraced each day. We do the best we can, leaving the rest to God. I look up into the skies during clear nights, counting the starts; all too many, uncountable. I sit by the beach, listening to the tides. The waves bashing against the rocks. Such beautiful nature. I see animals out in the wild, they survive each day, depending on someone more extraordinary than themselves. So I think to myself, if God can take care of these little things, how can He not take care of my future?
Through these journey, I'm anticipating something good for tomorrow. I may fall today, but with the greater One in me, I'll be able to get up again. So what if I fail today, there is a special course set for me. There are people all around us, family, friends who will be there standing beside us while we get up back to our feet. All is left to be done is allowing the river flow towards the set destination.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
When Stardust Falls
"When a star passes, you grab it. You tame it. And when you release it, it will come back to you."
Someone wise told me that opportunity is like a shooting star. Life is like a gamble. We invest, and sometimes we lose.
Life has it's ups and downs. Sometimes, expecting too much spells disappointments. Then, we tell ourselves not to expect at all; and then, that's just when surprises pop up.
I don't blame people for being afraid of watching others make mistakes. They often protect, assuring that we're safe, and not walking the path they have walked before. However, sometimes I find questions popping in my head. "What if we never made those mistakes? Would we then actually grow into the person or people we are today?"
When life throws opportunities at us, do we then deny it, or let it pass us by? Who lets something good walk by just like that? I have learned that life is wild, unexpected, and unpredictable. People tend to decide who we should be or what we should do. Our actions and words are often affected by the people surrounding us; so much so, that we tend to live for others and letting our real inner self die away. We deny our unique personalities and allow other people to grow through us.
Babies tend to mimic their parents, so do young children. We develop into what we're educated to be, but how much do we become ourselves? And how much have our inner self disappeared?
I've learned that life means living life to the fullest. It means living life according to what your inner self tells you to be. It's not about being afraid to unleash differences, but being daring to make a change. So what if people think you're odd? Odd doesn't always mean you're wrong, it just means you probably have a different mindset. Odd means being special or it can indicate change as well.
When life throws you roses, you don't just sniff them. You collect every single bit of them, making the best of them. Treasure every second and moment while you have them, cause you don't know when will be the last. Life is beautiful when we take life slowly, embracing every single passing moment.
So what if we lose? We can lose our face, lose love or lose the things we treasure most. But then again, if we look at the bright side, it is through these moments that develop our strengths, making us stronger for a new challenge. From there, that's maybe when another opportunity will fly by. Til then, we will know that we're ready and stronger. We can then grab the opportunity and with wisdom, tame it. And when we let go of it, if it's ours, it will find its way back.
No matter how challenging things get, hold on to your believes and inner faith. An opportunity may have passed you by, but there will probably be another one when the time is right. Meanwhile, while you have your star, treasure it with love. Don't stop being yourself, don't give up with the things you love despite opponents or opposing factors. Don't let go of the star, don't wait too long. Don't let your star become remnants of stardust. Cherish everything while its in your hands.
Someone wise told me that opportunity is like a shooting star. Life is like a gamble. We invest, and sometimes we lose.
Life has it's ups and downs. Sometimes, expecting too much spells disappointments. Then, we tell ourselves not to expect at all; and then, that's just when surprises pop up.
I don't blame people for being afraid of watching others make mistakes. They often protect, assuring that we're safe, and not walking the path they have walked before. However, sometimes I find questions popping in my head. "What if we never made those mistakes? Would we then actually grow into the person or people we are today?"
When life throws opportunities at us, do we then deny it, or let it pass us by? Who lets something good walk by just like that? I have learned that life is wild, unexpected, and unpredictable. People tend to decide who we should be or what we should do. Our actions and words are often affected by the people surrounding us; so much so, that we tend to live for others and letting our real inner self die away. We deny our unique personalities and allow other people to grow through us.
Babies tend to mimic their parents, so do young children. We develop into what we're educated to be, but how much do we become ourselves? And how much have our inner self disappeared?
I've learned that life means living life to the fullest. It means living life according to what your inner self tells you to be. It's not about being afraid to unleash differences, but being daring to make a change. So what if people think you're odd? Odd doesn't always mean you're wrong, it just means you probably have a different mindset. Odd means being special or it can indicate change as well.
When life throws you roses, you don't just sniff them. You collect every single bit of them, making the best of them. Treasure every second and moment while you have them, cause you don't know when will be the last. Life is beautiful when we take life slowly, embracing every single passing moment.
So what if we lose? We can lose our face, lose love or lose the things we treasure most. But then again, if we look at the bright side, it is through these moments that develop our strengths, making us stronger for a new challenge. From there, that's maybe when another opportunity will fly by. Til then, we will know that we're ready and stronger. We can then grab the opportunity and with wisdom, tame it. And when we let go of it, if it's ours, it will find its way back.
No matter how challenging things get, hold on to your believes and inner faith. An opportunity may have passed you by, but there will probably be another one when the time is right. Meanwhile, while you have your star, treasure it with love. Don't stop being yourself, don't give up with the things you love despite opponents or opposing factors. Don't let go of the star, don't wait too long. Don't let your star become remnants of stardust. Cherish everything while its in your hands.
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