Staring straight into the screen. My eyes are hurting badly.
Maybe it is due to the lack of sleep I had last night. The stress is on my eyes just to make sure that I get to finish reading before I'm back to my hectic life.
Been trying to chill lately, but things seem to mount up.
Finally, I think it's time to blurt out everything.
The scent of my hair is currently a replica of tar..(and I literally meant tar as in tar from the tree..herb kind of thing.)
Current update, removing my spectacles and glaring out of the window is not anywhere near my list.
It's been almost more than a month since I strained my eyes. It would tire out easily and sometimes it just makes me so frustrated.
From almost not seeing speeding cars ahead on the road to running into the walls. And that is just barely the beginning. Numerous times I would miss a step or get out from somewhere with a blue black on my knee.
Sometimes I feel like leashing it out ..
People think I'm being negligent or pretending to be lazy. But that's really not the point.
The fact is, people don't really understand.
Without my glasses, everything is merely like a faded scrap of painting.
Faces can't be recognised unless brought to closer look.
I bet I'll actually slip into the drain if I hadn't any on.
As I'm writing now, the light is piercing fiercely.
During the day, it's just light beaming sharply and blinding my sights.
Everything turns grey black for awhile . And my pupils are left stunned from closing suddenly.
Sometimes, the view is lovely when accompanied by natural sounds.
Sometimes, people keep pasturing me into doing lasers.
This isn't braces... ( I tell them)
It's not something you can change overnight. There are internal risks and the possibilities of facing eye damage or blindness.
Even if that's not the case, a laser is still a knife that slices through.
I'm not afraid of the pain.
I know that it will bounce back to consequence number one..that is BLINDNESS
But doctors will deny them. Effects will happen many years later. And eventually, blindness it still the case.
I'm rather grateful that I can still see. And that there is the invention of glasses.
However, my prayers are that, one day...
I will get to see the world from a different perspective. Perfectly...
I'm looking forward for a miracle.
