'I trust in the Lord and lean not on my own understanding. For when I acknowledge you, you'll make my paths straight.'
Dear God,
I'm quite sure that you're aware of my panic state now. There's so many things on my mind.
My heart's rate is accelerating twice as fast as usual. My hands getting chilled, my body slightly jittery. I wonder if these are symptoms of fear in accepting the future or perhaps anxiety.
So many expectations; and I'm shouldering the worries that I shouldn't. I wonder if I'll sleep tonight. I wonder what tomorrow will be.
At moments like this, I'm so afraid. Afraid of what the truth may be. Anxious of what everything would turn out to be.
The past week has en-forged a sense of doubt and fear. For those that hath been of believes were let down. All things may fail me. But the one person whom I know shall never fail me, will be you,God.
Dear God,
I wonder if you know that I'm glad to be born a Christian. Without you, my life would have probably ended a long time ago. They say that gods can't give you answers. And that you have to help yourself in order for God to help you. However, I'm glad that you have always loved me even when I doubted you. You gave me the one gift I could never earn that's love, and your grace.
Even as I ponder upon the promises you've given me in my life, I know you have a plan and purpose for me. Despite all those trials, I'm stronger because you've guided and delivered me.
As I awake tomorrow, I shall believe in your promises. Faith and grace are always tied together as a whole package. Thus, I shall believe hard and receive your favor upon my results, relationships and future.
Dear God,
I wonder when things will fall into place. When to get the right one, where to go and what to do.
Somehow, I know deep within that life has moulded me; making me have even more faith in you. Life is a wonder. So complicated; yet, ever revolving. Yet, putting you as the center of my life will make things smoother and beautiful in its time.
Humans are never perfect. That's why we're not angels. And again, even though there's been a screw up, Your grace has made me realise that a second chance of trust is never impossible.
I'm believing for my miracle.
