My Little Island Called Home

"The days here are numbered, I savour each and every second back here."

It's been rainy for the past few days; clearing the haze. Like, finally! Finally able to see the clear blue skies reflect on the ocean. The trees get really green and it brings that freshness of inspiration to the soul. Yes, the mists at the hill is clearly in sight, reminds me of some kind of mountain view seen on TV.

As I tour around the streets which only vacant after school break, I begin to think of those lovely lights by the street. They seem so real now, but in awhile more, they will fade away into mere memories. Drove around the empty roads and keep wishing the place that I'm going to would at least have a little bit of Penang. But again, every state has its own roads, its own culture.

                                                                      By the Jetty

Spent some time by the beach, allowed the waters to creep to my feet. Warm sea, cold fine-grain sand beneath that drown for each step I take, leaving footprints on the ground. Definitely gonna miss the lovely sunset view, the ones where orange paints the skies horizontally, turning the blue skies purple then to dark where stars began to take lit.

                                                                       Sunset view


I don't know if I'm being biased, but there is one thing noticed. Penang in one way or another has almost a balance of everything. From food, to culture, we have good chill out spots and awesome malls. Gifted by nature, the hills, beaches, and gardens seem to be the only reason for temptation to keep wanting to breathe the outdoor air. A wonderful place to breathe, and relieve all tensions. I don't know if its just me but it seems to be a place that birth inspiration, passion and newly born ideas.

                                                          Penang Hawker delights

Penang isn't just a food heaven. Totally have to admit that it's one of the things that make me so in love with Penang. You can find food at almost every corner at almost every part of the day and we practically live to eat! Penang is almost more than everything I can remember. My home, the place that watched me grow up. Penang, my home of memories. 

                                                              Mural and Street painting



Wonder how things will be like once I get back, cause even though Penang maybe just a tiny turtle island, it holds so much more value than people realize.

                                                         This is the island called home.

Tears,Thoughts and The Supernatural

"Tears are part of the immune system. That's why when our heart hurts, we cry."

Our body was created with different forms of emotions to adapt to situations and changes in life.

Life is never easy. There are moments we rise, and then, fall. For every mountain crossed, we sometimes find ourselves facing other types of challenges or hurdles. In other words, life throws us struggles, one after another simply because we live in a fallen world.

Our bodies have developed to a stage where we have emotions to enable us to defend ourselves from our daily pressures, stress or situations. That's why we get angry, sad, happy. Somehow, I believe that there is a link between both flesh and supernatural. Our emotions drive us in deciding our thoughts, feelings, emotions and desires (the soul) and yet, can be translated into flesh via tears. Ever wondered how you can cry, feel that anxiety in your chest or abdomen; but scientists claim that your heart is at the left of your upper body and only stomach at those areas? Ever wondered if there was something beyond just the physical, or something more? Like maybe, the spirituality?

Scientist can find your physical heart, but they have never found our souls. So where do these pains, emotions and memories cash from? Where do you find unrested spirits when people die? Their bodies are gone, but their souls still live? Miracles happen each day that even educated people with analytical views can never explain. So do we really believe that there is a God beyond our universe? Look at the trees around us, they blossom and bloom. We can only tell how life cycle is, but have we ever wondered, who gives them water or the air to breathe? Who turned night into day, or day into night? Similarly, we can only tell that we were made out of an egg and sperm, but will we really know how each of our souls were placed in our bodies in the first place?

Memories are found in our brains, one part of the head chakra not everyone can explain. Each of us have a soul, desires, that's what drives us to either continue or stop living life. 

As humans, we walk through the path of life, having to past through bitter sweet moments. Some fond memories, and some, a nightmare that rings as a reminder to be cautious. Certain things, we have to learn via these memories. 

Nightmares of life sometimes remind us of the unpleasant things we wished never happened to us,or in other words, were unavoidable. However, I believe somewhere, our soul lives, there are things we have to learn to let go. Despite the pain and horror, our soul can be replenished and restored by opening our hearts to the only reason mankind were created for. I used to question myself, why the emptiness within? Those nightmares are merely horrors that poke spirituality of our minds to stop us from pursuing better things in life. For that, I believe that we humans were created for a purpose, having God in our lives. I've learned that I can't fix my own life with the person I really am, and that I need a power far greater than my own self.

Life is only so much that we can make, so much that we can work. In my opinion, the ultimate power who runs our lives; The One we can never outrun is but the Creator Himself. So much of these that life has thrown to me, I'll need more than just getting up from a fall and just keep moving forward with supernatural help.

Dear Little One

'Felt that tiny little heartbeat as you slept soundly in my arms.'

Dear little one,

There's just that little part of everything of you that made me feel like pouring out how I feel today.
I understand now when people say, there's this innocence of the baby that draws love. You're helpless, yet, in this, you have the strength to make one offer protective care and love to you.

Little dear, just one glance at your face makes me wish a thousand times that one day I'll have a little one just like you. The only difference is that this time, I'll know he or she is mine.

You remind me of the way I watched each family member was born after me, giving that I was born first within my immediate family. Watching every birth, I wonder how it feels like to have your very own.

With my own eyes, I've seen how babies bring about good memories. A baby binds the family together.

Little ones like you look so fragile. Holding your tiny little body, feeling every tiny detail of your little vertebrae. They're soft and a single harm could loose you everything. Holding you in my arms made me think and ponder, if you were my very own. I would risks anything to see you protected and unharmed from the threats of the world. To make you stay forever this way and never grow up. Making every possibility to see your tiny yawns, that innocent face. Those red cheeks and fully shut eyes is something I wouldn't forget.

Babies like you are a bundle of joy. Their one of the only reasons that make me smile when I step into the doors of a hospital. You little ones symbolize life, a regeneration of those who have passed on. The tears you cry as a sign of breath, the way you first start living, even I can't deny how you make me smile in the inside. As young as you are, you've already begun the very fight of survival.

Dear baby,
I hope that one day, I'll have you as my very own. People tell me that I plan way ahead, but maybe girls were born with a maternal instinct. They tell me that I'm crazy to want to have you soon. But somehow, I'll always look forward to that one day that I'll be able to embrace you in my arms as my very own.

Little Things That Matter

The little things that inspired the beginning of this blog were thoughts. Just thoughts.

Coming so far made me wonder how most of us rely on emotions to react to daily situations.

It matters so much for people to ask how we're doing. A simple gesture makes our day, it reminds us that there are people out there who still care.

In today's world, people don't realize how priorities, time and just actions can tell so much. A person can be having a sardine-packed schedule, but a few seconds of telling others that they still care matters. Time can be short, but a split second of action or words could change situations a 360 degrees around.

I've known that a simple hug can make one stop crying. An apology away from ego is all that is required to stop pain in any relationship. Forgiveness is the answer to letting go of hatred and revenge. Simple keys such as these are things we often ignore.

We tend to take people for granted. Human mentality as ours are sometimes thinking that they will always be there. At times, we think time can wait, people can wait. Little do we realize that time itself can't wait too long, and then, things change. We don't realize that the whole world could collapse, things could end, things we thought were there before would disappear. That's how we keep beating ourselves in the end for being a little too late.

Also, noticing little changes about others can change the way they think. Telling people how you feel about them in a positive manner no matter what counts. Being afraid makes you suffer. Be judged, but know that you've tried the best you could. Encourage one when they need it, you wouldn't know how much that little few words could gurd their courage. You wouldn't know how one day their success may source from the support you've given to them.

People around can throw so much hurts at us, but how much can we store? That pain, the only escape is to let go. I realized that having a bigger heart to love is better than preparing spikes. Sure, the pain remains when the opponent sees nothing, but deep within, a little bit of scars or tears. Still, we know these wounds heal us, restoring us into stronger and better people. Time is too short to hate, I'd rather choose to love.

They say embrace while in our hands, the little things we ignore slowly slip off our hands unknowingly.